Dancing but that could be because I enjoy dancing. They both go hand in hand. I really want to post a video of myself dancing hehe but I am a little bit embarrassed because I become a “freak” when dancing. I don’t want the whole world to know about that haha.
My grades are falling not to the point where your parents desire to kill you though. I am hating disappointed in myself because I can do better I am just not putting much effort. I don’t seem to be caring which makes me upset. “Fuck you and fuck what you represent” are the words that come out of my mouth when being in this state. I’m blaming my sleep habits because I only get about five hours asleep daily no bs. It’s scary! But who want to wake up at 6am nobody does! There is no actual motivation in anything I do. Right now I am too depressed so I will leave it at that before I bore you guys out.
Yesterday I slept until 8pm can you believe that whoa that is pretty late. For some reason I was not able to sleep Sunday night. I watched the time on my phone it was 4am I was in “freak” moment. I felt like I was going crazy. That was the only time I ever slept until 8pm that I can remember.
Well today the weather was great and just checked on weather.com and it says it is going to be nice this week, I am very glad about that. Nice weather puts me in a happy mood. I smile so you should smile with me haha.
This whole week has felt so pointless. Haven’t done anything nor am I willing to do anything to change it, but bitch about it. There is nothing out there entertaining me. So I’m reading celebrity gossip I do it is just to be informed I don’t want to be the last one knowing something, you feel me.
I have been thinking and I have come to a conclusion that I should try and get in shape before spring arrives. I am not skinny, but average like shape. I am disgusted how my thighs appear. Most men would say “oh la la” cause I have meat on myself, but that is not enough to keep me from staying this way. I weight 120 pounds it sounds a little, but since I am very short I can weight 110..I believe. I am planning to start with yoga and make my way up for more challenging work outs.
I stood up from my chair to reach the color pencils because in my French class we were drawing mask in celebration of Mardi Gras. As I was grabbing the color pencils a guy was going to sharpen his pencil we were passing each other when suddenly we both bump each other in the back. I started to walk away when I noticed we were connected! I turn my head to see what was keeping me attached to him. Turns out his waist key chain thingy caught onto my jeans. He was able to remove it, and I was freed! My face was so red because it was embarrassing because it caught me by surprise. Let me add that the guy and I are not friends nor do we hang with the same crowd so yup you can picture the awkwardness. Plus he is cute hehe.