Xethie

Every time I step out of the shower and allow my hair to dry I say what the fuck?! I look ugly, ugh! I don’t go out fishing for compliements when I say that because I honestly am not feeling attractive at that moment but that doesn’t mean I will constantly be feeling that way or saying that.

Every girl wants to feel pretty and when you feel pretty you become confident of yourself! I know that is obvious but I felt like it needed to be stated.

When I straighten my hair and put makeup on I think to myself, “damn I look hot”. I really don’t need a sexy outfit [but it can help] because my face is enough to make me feel good and of course feeling like you have a nice body but no need to show it. Wink wink.

My friend confidences is the key!

Luisa: You have to make the clitoris your best friend. 
Tenoch: What kind of friend is always hiding?

Shaggy: Hey, Berenice. Listen, I’ve got something real important to say. Tell me, you ever heard of love at first sight?

Berenice: Sure, but gangsters don’t fall in love, they just get horny.

Shaggy: C’mon, you cut everything I say to pieces.

Berenice: Gangsters don’t talk, they just smooth talk.

Shaggy: Jesus, I’m gonna stop wasting my breath on you, you sure ain’t easy.

Berenice: Gangsters never stop, they just take a break.

Shaggy: Jeez, Berenice, talking about love with you is pretty complicated, isn’t it?

Berenice: Love, you gotta be kidding. You’re just leading me on.

Shaggy: But it’s just that this jerk here loves you.

I know it’s messed up to laugh at somebody who isn’t looking their best but I have the right because this “bitch” used to make me look like a fool because of my looks. Um, what I mean by that is I wasn’t as developed, she had a nice body while I was skinny and was starting to fix myself up.

She used to think of herself being all high and mighty and would put me down. I just jump of joy to know that my face doesn’t look bloated nor does my tummy but hers mhm, I’m frying her ahah.

Now I know I am pretty looking, not trying to be conceited by any means just stating facts. Okay, makes me sound like a douche ahah but you get it.

I’m so mean, fuck that! Haha I’m letting it out which is good. 

Anyways, the idea of this post was to get pleasure of knowing I rank higher than her woot woot!

I will never be in her position:

1) I am ‘always’ nice to people. I love people talking highly of me ^^ It’s great to know that people like you, that will always put me in a good mood. Knowing that you can make somebodies day is worth it.

2) I work out - my workout routine so far is walking my dog and dancing. I will definetly try those tips the hot Asian bodybuilder provided.

3) I stay humble and forever will. I didn’t grow up being rich but grew up being American with Hispanic parents what is my point I have no clue haha. 

She could have changed because that happened years ago but I could careless about that. You will remain a bitch in my book until we met again and I see change.

their dangerously quiet daughter…

I have been forgetting things and it’s so annoying. I tell myself remember but never actually remember what it is just that I told myself to remember “fuck”!

I know every person has their ‘moments’ but this is happening more frequently. 

It’s time I carry note cards so I don’t forget things.

I just finished watching Momento and it gave me this idea.

I was in a dark room it appeared very dirty and had leakage problems. There was a small window where we would see guns firing it all looked like fireworks. I was in the room with dozen of other people including my parents we were all on top of each other, praying we would be able to make it through. We were waiting for a siren which would inform the soliders to bust the door open and kill as many people as they could because the population was at it’s max.

Well they shot me on the thigh and rib area. A few bodies laid hopelessly while family members would be in grief but we couldn’t make a noise otherwise the soliders would strike back. I knew my time gas come because I feeling very weak and was close to passing out. I had my family there trying to get me through in the most peaceful way they could. They were bringing up the past and trying to make me speak while all I was able to do was nod my head since it was becoming difficult to speak.

-I felt as if it was similar to the holocaust we were not treated as humans because we were being eliminating off the face of earth. We had no say in this manner and all we could do pray it was not us or our love ones.